Receiving my Day Collar; A beautiful ceremony.

Receiving my Day Collar; A beautiful ceremony.

What a wonderful ending to a perfect day. Our anniversary was last week. My husband/Master and I celebrated with a nice day together. He and I have been married 16 years. Truly something to celebrate.

We had an overnight sitter which is a rare thing. When we came home it was dark out. I was instructed to strip and sit in the bedroom. I waited patiently while my Master set up a beautifully simple scene in our living room. He came in and put out his hand, telling me to stand and come to him. Then my Master led me into the living room where there was a small table with a light blue cloth on it. The blue was much like the blue we had in our wedding. On the table were red roses and a red box.

My Master said a few short but sincere words that conveyed the promise he was making to loce, protect and guide me. I responded by telling him I would try my hardest to make him proud and I would not disappoint him.

He placed the collar around my neck and kissed me.

It was such a sweet ceremony.

I had been nervous for days before. I am still learning and will always look to be a better version of me. The nerves went away as he held me. I am so thankful for the time my Master spent in preparing such a beautiful evening.

Of course, we may very well have woken the neighbors later but that is how it should be. 🌹💋💗

Submission with a chronic illness.

There are days that I wake up and wish I could just stay in bed. Sometimes my pain is overwhelming. I am so fortunate to have a Master/husband who is so understanding. He still pushes me to Greatness however he is understanding of my limitations on those days and is happy to just hold me.

I work and run our children to activities in addition to responsibilities as a submissive and a wife. In the last 2 weeks I went through a horrible pain flare. I still got up every day, made breakfast, got the children out the door and to school and went to work.

My Master wants me to tell him how I feel but I am reluctant to because it is like a constant complaint of the same things. I do not do medications because they have not helped. I prefer natural remedies.

I am sorry for venting on here and complaining to you. I get depressed feeling and have a hard time staying pleasant and happy.

What do you do on days you are feeling badly?

Even in my dreams I’m submissive.

Even in my dreams I’m submissive.

I had a sex dream last night. My Master was having sex with me. My Master was looking into my eyes and told me I wasn’t allowed to look away. He slid his fingers inside me but stopped before I came. My Master took his fingers out of my pussy and told me to touch myself while I licked them off. Master then asked me if I wanted to taste more of myself and I said “Yes my Master”. He slid his fingers back inside me and again told me to lick them off asking if I wanted more. Again I said “Yes please my Master”

This time, when my Master slid his fingers inside me he licked my lips and said he could taste my pussy on my mouth. My Master brought his hand up from my pussy and instead of me licking off his fingers my Master covered my nipples in my pussy juices and told me to lick them off and finger myself at the same time.


That was the whole dream. 💋👀🍑

What has shaped me into me.

What has shaped me into me.



I grew up in a very abusive home. Not only was I personally physically and mentally abused but I also watched my parents physically and mentally abused each other as well as my siblings to each other and received from both parents. I was also sexually abused for years. Not my parents and they never found out because I never told them.


Fast forward to now…


My past has molded me to a person who learns very quickly what is expected in order to not ever need punishment or correction. I personally thrive off of a positive reinforcement system and hope that I did not earn any punishments. Just knowing that I may have done something to disappoint my Master tears me apart.


After receiving my final grades for this semester I am looking forward to a possible reward. 3 B’s and 1 A! Summer classes start Saturday. Not that I feel entitled to anything for doing well, I was told I may get a reward.


What do you prefer? Positive reinforcement or punishment?


I have always been extremely emotional. In fact, I tend to internalize the emotions of others. It is difficult when my Master tells me to not let others bother me. Not something I can easily shut off. Not even sure I know how to.


I have an expectation of being confident. I also have a bunch of medical things going on that lead to anxiety and feelings of insecurity and frustration. I am not medicated so how do I shut that off to be what/who my Master wants me to be?

Slowly I am changing how I do things and being more mindful of what I do. It is certainly a challenge to relearn how to BE. I am learning, trying hard… feeling like I am not meeting expectations but my Master and I agreed that the transition will take some time.

Any thoughts would be greatly appreciated.




Where can I look for a 3rd…?

Where can I look for a 3rd…?

My master and I have been talking for a very very long time about having a threesome. I am all for adding another female to our fun. I really do not feel comfortable looking on Craigslist and with the exception of one friend of mine I do not know of anyone personally who would be interested. So how does one go about finding another woman?

We are not specifically active Within the community and really do not intend to become active at this point. Just looking for a few pointers and any advice on searching and weeding out the crazies to find somebody that is disease-free and not a stalker.


Thanks in advance for your help period it is much appreciated.

So much more than sexual

My Master injured his lower back yesterday at the gym. My heart breaks to see him in pain. I am overjoyed to be able to provide him some relief by making sure he has what he needs before I go to work. I wish I could just stay home and nurse him back to health.

There is so much more to this lifestyle than sex. It seems as if he is able to tell me more now what he needs than before. He still holds back a little, knowing I also work along with other responsibilities. This is a work in progress. We are both learning and everyday we grow. The bond strengthens between us. ❤